MEDITATION OF THE DAY
“He got up and followed him”
A prayer in which we offer ourselves completely to God, placing everything in our lives entirely in his hands, inviting him to do whatever he wants in our regard, may seem to take a great risk. But perhaps such a prayer is a necessity once we arrive at a certain plateau in our relations with our Lord and seem to be moving nowhere. We need not wait for some notion of exalted holiness to embrace us before making this kind of offering. There is no requirement of steely detachment and indifference to the hard choices that might come our way in subsequent days. More than likely, we do experience some apprehension before such an act. The inner desire urging us toward an inner abandonment of ourselves simply calls for a decisive choice. Without realizing it, we have likely been longing for a release from the painful sense of holding back a gift from God that could be given. This kind of pure offering to God has really one demand: we must accept that God can now act freely with us, without consulting us, far beyond proposals we might present for our lives.
We will learn in time that despite the seeming risk, God never takes advantage of generosity but, rather, brings the blessing of his presence in a new manner. He extends the reach of grace into our soul to match the depth of offering from our soul. What had been beyond our capacity to accept from God before such a prayer, even hard suffering, becomes possible to bear only because we have offered ourselves to our Lord.
Father Donald Haggerty
Father Haggerty, a priest of the Archdiocese of New York, is currently serving at Saint Patrick’s Cathedral in New York City. / From Contemplative Enigmas: Insights and Aid on the Path to Deeper Prayer. © 2020, Ignatius Press, San Francisco, CA. www.ignatius.com. Used with permission.